A year ago…

A year ago yesterday, I graduated high school.

One whole year out of school.

This time in one’s life brings a lot of changes and learning curves, but I could have never predicted the chain of events that occurred during this past year.I graduated feeling optimistic, and excited for the future, only for those dreams to come crashing down around me a few months later, not because of external factors, but through choices of my own – an unexpected sudden change of mind.

This left me feeling confused and lost to where my life was heading, and unsure of what to do next. It may seem dramatic now, but those feelings were very real and very scary in the moment. I felt like I was letting not only myself, but everyone down. From my perspective, everyone around me had a plan, and were following it – making progess and working towards their dreams post school. And then there was me. Stuck behind. I thought I had it all planned out, but I couldn’t be more wrong. I was lost.

My mental health suffered, my state of mind was in a bad place and I felt out of control. I couldn’t seem to pick myself back up. I hid away from everything, embarrassed of myself and what had happened. I didn’t want anyone to know about the perceived mess that had occurred. It led me to putting on a happy persona, pretending to be happy person I oh so wanted to be, praying that one day, I wouldn’t need to pretend no longer.

After what felt like an eternity, things started to pick up. Everything turned around. I eventually chose a new path and decided put my trust in the universe and immerse myself in the unknown, making sure sure to keep my options as open as possible. I now have a new plan for the future, and I’m much more prepared for if things don’t go to plan.

Here I am now, one year later. There’s been highs, and there’s been lows, but things have been looking up and for the first time in a while I’m actually excited for the future.

I never expected this year to go the way it has. I did not expect to be doing what I am right now. But would I change a thing? Absolutely not. Everything happens for a reason.

– Karen xx

4 thoughts on “A year ago…

  1. These kind of mental feelings take you no where, just you have to try to get rid of them and do what’s best for you. Glad you are much away and higher from these thoughts now.


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